I can start a new life anywhere except here

I woke up this morning at 4:30am.

My internal clock is fucked up, apparently causing me to wake up earlier and earlier as the days pass. It doesn’t matter much what time I choose to go to sleep, I’ll be awake before 6am regardless. I try to be asleep before 11pm, in attempts to avoid midday headaches. I get them anyway. I don’t drink enough water; I don’…