GRLCHLD Vol. 1 & 2 (Low [and final??] Stock)

Running low on inventory/a plea/I love you, infinitely.

Hello Muffins,

Little inventory note in between our regularly scheduled sob stories…

Down to 15 copies each of GRLCHLD Vol. 1 & 2 :)

Reminder, they are available HERE (you can click me, I am a link).

There are some physical printings of these that I miiiiiight get back one day, but I have no way of knowing for sure… so I am referring to these 15 as “the final 15” of the way the zine currently exists.

My next ship day is Friday, September 19th — IT WOULD BE SOOOOOOOOOO INCREDIBLY COOL if majority (or ALL!) of these could go out on Friday to help out with printing costs of the upcoming…dun,dun,dun… Volume 3. (yaaaaaay!)

I’d also like to open the conversation around OTHER types of physical items.

Merch feels silly to me… I am not in a band (yet), I am not currently performing in a live capacity in which I feel it would make sense to produce “traditonal” merch, plus I’d like to share art, more than feed into consumerism, and make you another t-shirt to wear to sleep or whatnot. Not saying there isn’t an incredible amount of (typically) collaborative creativity going into shirt designs, I have firsthand knowledge of how meaningful and intricate that process can be, I just think it’s something I’ll reserve for when I’m eventually back on the road again… whenever that may be.

I have had a repeated idea—one I believe stemming from years of (to be frank) trauma, and a deep desire to “reclaim” what feels like pieces of myself (for lack of a better phrasing) which I have virtually handed to others over the years—to publish a lewd per-zine of lightly-censored, or perhaps not even slightly censored, “nudes” and “thirst traps” which I have sent to various partners/love interests, over the years, as a means to generate income to support a move from Chicago (ultimate goal). I have a lovely format for this in my brain, that I think could be quite interesting from an observer sense—including anonymous correspondences from the times, and coupled with what I would like to include writing-wise, I think it could be interesting. Think more think-piece vs. “porn,” however a subtle blend of both, however not with the direction intention to be jerk-bait. I don’t know if I’ll actually go this route, but I have grappled with my feeling a current inability to own my sexuality in a marketable sense, as I once did to my benefit at various times of turmoil. I feel stripped of an ability I once felt confident in, out of shame, and would like to try to find a way to re-claim that without going back to creating “adult content” and without doing so while void of several nuances attached to it.

Now, besides that, and in addition to (I wouldn’t make that the only option for media from me… lol), if I ever go that route and if I don’t, I am also coming up with several items I can produce, at home, to make available. I’d like to start sharing my new songs, well… old, new, any of my songs, frankly. I have a vision in my head of a limited run of physical media to begin this process, before even Bandcamp or wherever I may release in the future. I’m thinking a 3 song cassette or CD, home recordings with just me singing and playing the guitar (maybe a drum machine, but probably not). Trying to find ways to do this without having to overcharge in order to offset the costs of materials. Blank cassettes and CDs are quite expensive, even in small bulk orders, and I’d like to keep every item in the store under $25 before shipping costs, as a general marker.

ANYWAY. None of this matters.

Love you.

Tell me how you are, it’s been a fucking weird week in the world, and I hate everything, except you.

G (F.K.A. P),
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